I sit here bored and thinking about my life. The cymbalta seems to be working, so I push, just a bit. Ouch. Now I can’t sleep as I was hoping for a miracle. I’d love to go to work again and hear the words, “Your Fired”. My muscles burn. So I sit at the computer and try to read articles. The internet is a great place when you think your life is as worthless as a piece of shit.

A mother pimps out her daughter, A guy throws a child off a bridge, another guy takes his under aged girlfriend and hides, 3 Shootings in Tulsa today, Palin is coming to Tulsa, a 6 year old girl steals purses from Chuck E. Cheese, A boy is run over then beaten to death, A Mother traded her kids for a Cockatoo, etc.

When I read crap like this, I am glad I am disabled and stay at home.

I take a loaf of Raisin Bread over to Teresa. Autumn (The child) grabs it. I explain that the loaf was round and fluffy, there not my fingerprints and I didn’t fold it in half in the bag. No one seems to care. They quickly divide the bread and share amongst the family, even though it now looks like I fell on it.

Both Dogs had a ham bone tonight. Even though they were on both sides of the room, they growled at each other until they were done.

Today is a new day.

Cymbalta actually seems to be working. I am actually semi getting up and down without my cane, I can move a little quicker, and my bed feels a bit more comfortable. I’m actually thinking about doubling the dosage, even though I am on Max. I still hurt like an S.O.B. But I can move. Sure, I can’t get an erection and I crapped my pants a couple times, I urinate like a broken sprinkler system, My nose runs so bad I wear a bib, I didn’t know men could have hot flashes and I shake like I got caught masturbating in a Public Elevator, But the pains been reduced to an almost manageable level. It seems to be give and take so this month, I will live with less pain.

O.K. I have been taking Cymbalta for a week now for Fibromylgia. It’s for Depression, Fibromylgia and Diabetic Neuropathy. I have a few side effects, Yawning, Lost Libido, etc. Great! It has cut back on the Pain but I can’t get the old balloon erect. So I have a choice, Be in pain or get my rocks off, a choice that has no clear cut answers. I decided to look up the rest of the side effects and see how they line up with my illnesses (FM/CFS, PTSD, Anxiety, Diabetes, COPD) , other drugs and anything else. Side effects in black, my response in red.